Concluded my 15 years of studies yesterday when i finish my one and only paper. Unlike previous semesters, i dun really feel particularly excited nor happy about it. Maybe like i mentioned before, its due to the uncertainty the next phase of my life presents. But maybe i should also see it from another perspective, that is to enjoy every moment i can because life is short and anything can just happen.
If you ask me if i will miss school or miss my friends, i dun really know how to answer this. Been through so many separations through these years, in secondary school, JC, army and every time everyone had to move on with their own life, we will be sitting down saying how much we will miss the place and the company together, and sometimes pple get emotional about it. Some friendships i had in university are precious, something that i hope can last, but i am trying not to go down the path i use to travel, by putting zillions of hopes and expectations because having too high expectations will lead to extremely high disappointment if things dun turn out the way u want it. But no matter what, guess i will still put in my best efforts to maintain them, just hope that i wun be disappointed at the end...will it be different this time round? we shall see....But come to think back on these, everyone can still meet up after graduating. It is just the amount of effort one put in to make things happen. And that is really the test of a friendship to see if it can be one that last forever.
Been getting lots of comments from pple on me being too kan chiong, not relaxed, too paranoid for my last paper in NTU, saying that since i had S/U it, i shouldnt be so uptight about it. To me, i feel that it is not a matter of whether you have S/U the module and therefore you should relax or not. But it is rather about putting in the best efforts for everything you do. I am a person who will put in 100% effort in doing things if i decide to do it. I S/U the paper because i do not want to take any risks but that does not mean that i should slack and neglect the paper. That is just not me. At the end of the day, i think whatever one does, he/she answers to him/herself. As long as you can pass the standards u set for yourself, then fine, just do whatever that suits you.
As for jobs application, went for an interview today and i stunned myself during the interview by giving replies that not only shocked the interviewers but also myself. When being asked on a hypothetical question, i replied "is this a trick question?" almost immediately when he asked it. I dun understand why i said that at that moment, but that is the biggest mistake you can make during an interview. On the question on what i thought are the traits of those in the post should possess, i actually mentioned that the person should not be ambitious...super omg, because the interviewer sort of gave a disgusted look and mentioned, "so i am such a non-ambitious person"...haiz..should have think deeper and give some more well phrased replies. There are many more times during the interview where i gave some incoherent replies..somehow, the replies i gave at the interview today are just so shocking..so off form...i really stunned myself today....when will the job come? some more things happened today which adds more stress on me needing to secure a job soon..
Worries aside, i am getting excited abt the aussie trip next week and family trip to hk mid may...must enjoy these moments of freedom while i can...
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