Lesser

Talks less and less

Smile and laugh lesser and lesser

Just find something missing in my life thus far.

Yearn to have it.

But guess just gotta face with the reality in life.

those days....

Been one year + since i typed anything on this blog...work has indeed zap my energy and soul so much that i am left wondering what's good and nice in life.

I found the answer when looking at those videos and photos of the Laos trip. Life is not just about earning big bucks and living on luxury goods. Life is simply just about bringing joy and laughter to those around you.

I miss those days...

忍

忍一时风平浪静, 退一步海阔天空

how far will this bring me? what will happen if i cant 忍 anymore?

....

Been sick these 2 days and so did not go back to office. I must say this is a long overdue break that i need from work. Been working day in day out, some days till late nights. And on weekends, been going out till very late and reach home super late. So as you can see, i dun have much time to rest at all for the past 3 months. I feel tired and drained out. So these 2 days, been staying at home, sleeping most of the time and enjoying the slack moment which i missed..really.

Today is the first time in like 3 months since i open the photos folder on my comp and look back at those times i had. Cant help it but feel sad that life have changed so much since graduation. Life is no longer the same anymore, or rather it can never be the same anymore. I miss those times back in JC, where we can be so rebellious so playful. Life was simple, but fun. I miss times in Vietnam and Laos...I miss times in HK...and those were the times when i am feel so carefree, without the need to face the reality of the world....

When one of my friend told me that he is going to quit his job coz he dun like it, i tried hard to presuade him not to quit, telling him the reality of this society and the things he have to consider if he want to quit. But now, thinking back, i kind of admire his courage for quitting something he doesnt like to do. I dun think i can be like him because i lack that courage, because i tend to think too much about the consequences. Not that i am unhappy of this job, but i just find that working is just zapping my energy, my soul away. I used to have a lot of crazy ideas, a lot of places i wanna go to, but now everyday after work, all i wanna do is go home and have dinner and then sleep. This cycle repeat itself for 5 days. Is this the kind of life i want? I seldom really smile at work, because it is not like doing projects with your friends, you can joke around, you cant say stupid things, you can buy food and munch your snacks while discussing. You have to be serious all the time. This is killing me..really. This isnt me at all. I dun want to be so serious for the rest of my life....After 3 months+...i feel tired. Do i still have the energy to last for the remaining 1 yr 9 months? i wonder....

The answer

Started work almost 3 months ago and by right, i should be very used to working life. But in actual fact, as i continue to work, i was made to ponder hard, to wonder hard, what exactly lies ahead of me, what is the meaning for the rest of my life. For the past few days, my msn nick says "searching hard", and yes, i am searching hard for an answer to what is the meaning in life.

I got the answer on saturday when i spoke to a friend whom i have known since Primary 1. And i must say i am so glad that i have a friend whom i know for 17 years and still keeping in contact. What he said in resposne to my question enlightened me:

"Dun search for the meaning of life, give life a meaning".

Wow..that struck me immediately because all these while i seem to be on the wrong track, because life has no meaning unless you give it one yourself. Like what he says, what he wants in life is just to have fun, to be happy, to be healthy and to be well fed.

Perhaps life itself is just as simple as that.

幸福需要勇气!!

Saw this report on the papers today on the comeback of homegrown singer Sun Yan Zi. Really admire her courage to take a 2 years break from work to search for the "answers" and to pursue what she wants to do. It also takes a lot of courage for her to go back into the music industry after so long.

Somehow, tt really made me feel that if you truly wants to find happiness, you got to have the courage and the will to find it. Like in the search for happiness in love life, you got to have the courage to make the first step in order to even be in contention for tt "happiness". For happiness in work, you got to have the courage to make the decision of when to leave if you find that you are just the slave of working and you are not feeling happy at work at all.

All in all...happiness really lies in our own hands. We got to decide what we want.

I like how this article is written...somehow i realise that chinese articles tend to be able to provoke deeper and thinking and reflections oneself.

Time flies

Lots of things happened in the past one month and i simply do not have time to blog down whatever that happened. So i will do a quick summary and then follow up on them this coming weekend.


Firstly..i went on a grad trip to australia (sydney and melbourne) with my uni friends from yr 1 sem 1...its such a nice place..totally love it, Beautiful scenery and nice weather. How i wish i had more time to travel the whole of australia. I wanted to travel all around australia since my maiden trip there during secondary 4, where i went to perth on a school annual camping trip. Love the weather in autumn and winter and the lazy feel there. It just makes me relaxed. Will post pics and stories soon....


Next..went back to hk yet again, but this time with my family. In fact i cant remember when was the last time i travelled on plane with my parents before (i think it was in primary school). So although i am going back hk again, i have no complains about it. Went back to most places i been to the previous time, except this time round, we went to Tai O, which i din go previously. It is just like a small fishing village, which has some resemblence of Singapore in the 19th century. Din buy a lot of things there because i think i have bought enough 6 months ago. So mainly its just sightseeing and food...

Actually during my grad trip in australia, i received calls every alternate days informing me to attend interviews, but i cant, and they are not willing to reschedule any of it. So i was sort of disappointed or sian diao by that. But on the last day in sydney, i got a call from citi informing me that i am being offered a job there. The next day when i returned back home, i signed the contract with them. And guess what is the starting date...the next monday..meaning i have like less than a week before i start work. And i still have to travel to HK the following day and will return on saturday only. The 2nd part of the grad trip to india and nepal have to be sacrificed, sadly. So i am filled with mixed feelings on getting this job, it is not that happiness or excitement that i felt when i signed the contract, but the sense of lost. Suddenly..my life changed.

So how has it changed? waking up at 630am every morning, and returning home from work at about 7 to 8pm..and then too tired to think or do anything, and just fall asleep. So seems like work has taken the bulk of my life now. This is the 2nd week of work and i am starting to wonder..what is the purpose of my life now? What is the goal i am chasing after? I am not sure.

But speaking back..maybe i shld be contented that i got a job...and yes i am...

Sometimes its just such an irony...when you are schooling, you have lots of time to travel to play. but no money....so u start working to earn money to satisfy your initial dreams...but now..i start to realise that you have money to travel..but you have that time to do so...

Why cant there be the best of both worlds?...i wonder..

Starting line of the next lap

Concluded my 15 years of studies yesterday when i finish my one and only paper. Unlike previous semesters, i dun really feel particularly excited nor happy about it. Maybe like i mentioned before, its due to the uncertainty the next phase of my life presents. But maybe i should also see it from another perspective, that is to enjoy every moment i can because life is short and anything can just happen.

If you ask me if i will miss school or miss my friends, i dun really know how to answer this. Been through so many separations through these years, in secondary school, JC, army and every time everyone had to move on with their own life, we will be sitting down saying how much we will miss the place and the company together, and sometimes pple get emotional about it. Some friendships i had in university are precious, something that i hope can last, but i am trying not to go down the path i use to travel, by putting zillions of hopes and expectations because having too high expectations will lead to extremely high disappointment if things dun turn out the way u want it. But no matter what, guess i will still put in my best efforts to maintain them, just hope that i wun be disappointed at the end...will it be different this time round? we shall see....But come to think back on these, everyone can still meet up after graduating. It is just the amount of effort one put in to make things happen. And that is really the test of a friendship to see if it can be one that last forever.

Been getting lots of comments from pple on me being too kan chiong, not relaxed, too paranoid for my last paper in NTU, saying that since i had S/U it, i shouldnt be so uptight about it. To me, i feel that it is not a matter of whether you have S/U the module and therefore you should relax or not. But it is rather about putting in the best efforts for everything you do. I am a person who will put in 100% effort in doing things if i decide to do it. I S/U the paper because i do not want to take any risks but that does not mean that i should slack and neglect the paper. That is just not me. At the end of the day, i think whatever one does, he/she answers to him/herself. As long as you can pass the standards u set for yourself, then fine, just do whatever that suits you.

As for jobs application, went for an interview today and i stunned myself during the interview by giving replies that not only shocked the interviewers but also myself. When being asked on a hypothetical question, i replied "is this a trick question?" almost immediately when he asked it. I dun understand why i said that at that moment, but that is the biggest mistake you can make during an interview. On the question on what i thought are the traits of those in the post should possess, i actually mentioned that the person should not be ambitious...super omg, because the interviewer sort of gave a disgusted look and mentioned, "so i am such a non-ambitious person"...haiz..should have think deeper and give some more well phrased replies. There are many more times during the interview where i gave some incoherent replies..somehow, the replies i gave at the interview today are just so shocking..so off form...i really stunned myself today....when will the job come? some more things happened today which adds more stress on me needing to secure a job soon..

Worries aside, i am getting excited abt the aussie trip next week and family trip to hk mid may...must enjoy these moments of freedom while i can...

Absolutely inspiring.........

Was introduced to this song by Lionel today in school and it turn out to be one of the most inspiring performance i had seen. In fact, this song moved me to tears and i had watched it like almost 3 times today. Yup..if you have been catching up with the latest in showbiz, you will know this...Its the performance by Susan Boyle on the 2009 series of "Britain's Got Talent", which was only aired less than a week ago and though it was uploaded on YouTube for like 4 days, it had garnered almost 6 million views.

She performed the song "I Dreamed a Dream" from the musical Les Misérables

"I dreamed a dream in time gone by

When hope was high

And life worth living

I dreamed that love would never die

I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid

And dreams were made and used

And wasted

There was no ransom to be paid

No song unsung

No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night

With their voices soft as thunder

As they tear your hope apart

As they turn your dream to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me

That we will live the years together

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are storms

We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be

So different from this hell I'm living

so different now from what it seemed

Now life has killed

The dream I dreamed."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

If you read the lyrics of this song, you will find that it is actually a rather sad song, about someone having a dream but being dashed. But when Susan performed this song, she managed to bring out another side of the story...an inspiring one. The song she performed seems to echo her life thus far, at an age of 47 and having a dream to be a professional singer since young. Even as she knows her age and looks cannot bring her far in the showbiz industry, she remain undeterred by any obstacles, and stood tall in this theatre of dreams to pursue her dreams. In the end, she made an astonishing and stunning performance that awe everyone, including me.

Initially, when she started singing, i was wondering if they had used the wrong tape with the original singing, because the singing is just so perfect and nice. And yes..totally agree that this is a wake up call for everyone, never judge a book by its cover...never judge someone by his/her looks....

Yup..so this song sort of uplift my mood tremendously and i am totally inspired by it..i will overcome all odds and continue to live my dreams...nothing shall stop me.

live the dream you dreamed.....

Uncertainty....

Been really down on luck these few weeks or months, with less than 3 phone calls i got regarding job interviews etc despite sending out more than 20 applications. Finally understand how tough the market is right now. I cant help but wonder why are my applications being rejected time and time again. Is my degree not good enough? or is my resume not impressive enough? Without a doubt, this is causing me lose confidence in myself. Suddenly, a person who had been so self confident in the past feeling so inferior about himself. Everything that i do these days, i cant help but question myself repeatedly whether this is correct or not. I am so lack of confidence that i hesitate speaking up even though i feel strongly against things or i have some burning questions. This is so unlike the me back in year 1 or year 2, where i am one of the most vocal in classes during discussions.

Even as i get the interviews, i attended it in fear. I am so unsure about myself, that i think i blew my chance yet again. This is a vicious cycle that i must find a way to stop it. Saying it is easy, but doing it is not. Now i can only pray real hard that my luck will turn for the better these coming weeks.

Saw this on the newspaper today..and it sort of explain the kind of situation i am experiencing now: on the verge of ending my 15 years of studies after the exams on th 29th and at the same time moving aimlessly into the uncertain future. The room behind the door i am about to open appears to be so empty and lonely....something which i hate and fear....i dread closing this schooling chapter of my life.

Colours in the sky

这一刻回头看见自己

这一路的风景百感交集的我

下一刻又将飞向哪里

渐渐疲惫的羽翼为你披上了勇气

放心离开我

我会记得这一刻

那些还飞翔着不可思意的梦

雨后的天空会有绚烂的彩虹

像最初相信着我们总会找到自由

saw this beautiful rainbow yesterday while i was playing vball in hwa chong....it just lifted my spirits..this is just some simple things that can put a smile on my face.

Forget you never....

It has been 8 years since we parted our ways. I have moved on with my life but i will never forget the many “firsts” i had with you. Even though i had left you, you will always remain dear in my heart. Thank you for instilling to me the many values in life such as "自强不息" and "饮水思源"that i will never forget. Thank you for shaping who i am today.

Yup..Attended The Chinese High School (or Hwa Chong Institution) 90th anniversary dinner today. I must really say that time flies because 10 years back, which is chinese high 80th anniversary, i participated in the opening ceremony in the day where then prime minister goh chok tong graced the ceremony and open our newly extended campus. At that time, all sec 2 boys(incl me) have to perform some traditional chinese "dance", called 红绸舞 for our PM. That night, i had to be the traffic marshal at the now defunct Singtel towers opposite our school. And of course all the npcc guys attended the 80th anniversary dinner after our duty, and the guest of honour is none other than our alumnus late President Ong teng cheong. Remembered one thing that he said that i still remember till date: 'If I'm not at Chinese High on March 21, where else can I be?' "...It just spell the passion he has for the school and the meaning of 饮水思源. This is indeed the true 华中spirit

So 10 years have passed and here i am, back in TCHS attending the 90th anniversary. I do not have many photos from secondary school because at that time, digital camera is something that is virtually non-existent in the market. But surprisingly the memories of that chapter of my life seems just so fresh in my head. I guess such memories that is so deeply embedded in my head is much more valuable than the millions of photos taken. I remember those days where my classmates and i will be playing chapteh after school almost everyday outside our classroom till about 6pm. I still remember playing mini soccer in the classroom using tennis ball during break time, and i tried to do a bicycle kick when i fell on my buttock. I remember attending music lessons, where we had to take test for the keyboard and i still remember the show "The Sound of Music" that we watched during the class. I remember failing my first exams in my life in sec 3 and had to see the dean at that time. I remember boycotting geography lesson with the rest of the class because we dun like the teacher teaching the subject, and we also got chased out of class for not bringing textbook(even those who brought volunteered to get out, so as not to attend the lesson). Thats how daring and rebellious we were..haaha.... I remember going on an overseas trip without going with my parents for the first time to perth for a 2 weeks camp. I remember spending lots of time in the library reading Tin-tin comic books and spending lots of time in the computer lab playing online games which chalk up to almost 100 bucks of internet fees.

Lots of memories flowed back when i saw many of my teachers who taught me before. Though some of them dun remember me, i do remember them...Remember what they had taught me and the encouragement they gave me at times when i need it most. Thanks for that.I remember having fantastic teachers such as Mrs chan (our form teacher & history teacher) who always joke with us and can be so casual with us. Really one of the best teacher i had. She can joke with us and we always bully her too, but her comments are just hilarious. Spoke to her just now, and she is as candid as 8 years back.

Mrs chua (chem teacher), who is soooo strict on us, making us run from our classroom to her chemistry lab the moment the bell rings. And i still remember that there was once we tried to act as if we were running by stamping our feet very hard on the steps to create the noise, but actually we were strolling up the stairs. Who knows she is watching from upstairs and caught us doing so...haha..its just so funny looking back. She is also the teacher who made me remember the formula for phosphoric acid for life...H3PO4...hahaa, because i was made to stand for the whole lesson for not knowing this formula.

Mr Png (Maths teacher). My A-maths and E-maths results were one of the most cui in class and had to go for his remedial lessons. He always give us lot of assignmets, and i still remember my friends and i wanted to finish the assignments fast so that we can play the "who wants to be a millionaire" online or street fighter, so we just simply copied from the answer booklet or famously known as the "grey book"....haha...ok..those were the times where i think i am so rebellious....=(...but i am glad i had learnt from my mistakes.

Yeah...so many memories from Chinese High..and i cant possibly type everything out now....simply love my school so much so much...Chinese High always hold a very special place in my heart and i will definitely be back for the 100th anniversary...The Hwa Chong spirit, which is "自强不息" and "饮水思源" (never give up and never forget our roots) is also something that i will never forget.

Once again...thank you chinese high for everything...happy 90th....

爱我华中, 我爱华中

after a long break

Lost the inspiration to blog recently maybe because there is really nothing interesting tt happened in my life for the past one month or so. And tts is rather true actually especially when i only have one module this semester..and tt is something i am regretting now..i shld have taken a language module at least..dumb dumb me..but no pt looking back too.

And my life start to pick up pace these 2 weeks especially with the FYP going to be due within a week time. So spent a lot of time in school, collating data, reading the lengthy literature, trying to get myself started on data analysis and writing the report, which certainly requires tonnes of effort to overcome my super powerful inertia. And tt is followed by only 8 hrs of sleep in 3 days, the least i have slept for almost a yr.Basically the reason why i had to burn midnight oil is coz we have not submitted the first draft by the dateline..but ya its finally done ytd after some mad rush.

Actually wanted to finish the report by wednesday so tt i could bring my hk friends (who are japs n italian) around spore, but coz i cant finish on time, had to rush here n there and try to make out time to fit their schedules...but i feel quite happy seeing them in spore..how often do u have foreign friends and yet still keep in contact after exchange...shall go slp now..coz tmr will bring them ard to little india and tmr is their last day in sg..so fast...

Quote....

"Don't limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve." - Mary Kay Ash

yet again..

3Rs

How often do i need to travel down this path...

Big relief..=)))

Woohoo...finally got back my results for my exchange in HK this morning...Its really a super long wait for the results release and i must say that i am super worried because i had taken 2 core, 1 PE and 1 UE which i MUST transfer over in order for me to graduate successfully this july. And the fact that i only studied for my 3 papers for only 6 days while struggling to get well from food poisoning made me even more worried.

Yup, so am very glad with the results. In fact, they were all up to my expectation. But if this is the result i get in NTU, then i will think its quite cui..Since its only transfer of credits, as long as i passed, i am happy. So really heaved a sigh of relief when i saw the results. Finally cleared this bothering issue, which is making me rather sian and cranky at times. So, i can now finally fully focus on my FYP and job seeking lo...

Speaking of FYP...was in school for most of today, trying to write my part of the literature review and of coz to distribute out the survey forms to whoever i know. Yup...pretty desperate lah because the deadline set by the prof is actually next week..and how am i going to get 250 sample size and key in the data within one week...really need all my friends who received my email blast to complete it man..else i think i confirm GG...

Gotten the bak kwa today which i bought from ove'09 and tts means tt the footsteps of CNY is really getting nearer n nearer...In fact...its this sunday..OMG...i must say tt i dun feel the CNY mood at all, and this is the same feeling i had over the past 2 years. Guess the meaning of CNY to me have changed over the years. Issit because i am getting older? or is everyone feeling the same as i did? I really do miss those fun days of CNY i had when i was young....but it can never be the same again...maybe i will visit my primary school this friday to experience it again..HAHAA..=p

最初的夢想.....一定要到达

最初的夢想 范瑋琪

如果驕傲沒被現實大海冷冷拍下

又怎會懂得要多努力才走得到遠方

如果夢想不曾墜落懸崖千鈞一髮

又怎會曉得執著的人要有隱形翅膀

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把眼淚裝在心上會開出勇敢的花

可以在疲憊的時光閉上眼睛聞到一種芬芳

就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮

又能邊走著邊哼著歌用輕快的步伐

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沮喪時總會明顯感到孤獨的重量

多渴望懂得的人給些溫暖借個肩膀

很高興一路上我們的默契那麼長

穿過風又繞個彎心還連著像往常一樣

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最初的夢想緊握在手上

最想要去的地方怎麼能在半路就放

最初的夢想絕對會到達

實現了真的渴望才能夠算到過了天堂

heard this old song over the radio just now and thought its pretty nice, as in the lyrics are quite meaningful..

am threading along the thin thin line.......

Finally a medal...=)))

Went down to school today to settle some stuff for my FYP, which only lasted for a few hours. Coz the highlight for me today is actually the ISG semis in the evening against NIE. Its actually quite some time since i played competitive vball. I like playing competitive vball coz i like the adrenaline rush, the excitement, the feeling of triumph or sorrow(not really!!!) after the match, the mind games you play with the opponents, to outwit each other. Have played for NBS at the ISG for all 3 years already and since this is my final yr in nbs, so i am pretty determined to end it off with a medal from the ISG. In fact the last time i gotten any medal from a vball competition was 2 years back, also at the ISG, where we got 3rd. So it had been a medal drought for me from vball for quite some time.

So played NIE in the semis, where we were expected to lose coz we are the underdogs in the competition especially when both ivp players weren't around. The first set was so tight, where we lost 29-27..then the second set, we fought back with 27-25...both sets were super duper close..and every points count..make me sweat siaz..haha..then the final set, we won 15-11...so first time through to the finals for nbs for all my 3 yrs. Because no one wants to come back on Saturday for the finals, we decided to play the finals right after the semis, which means its quite shag, especially when we have totally no substitutes at all. Surprisingly, the finals wasn't as exciting as the semis because the other team, the engine, made too much unforced errors. And eventually we won...woohooooo...guess this is the first time nbs won the isg vball, defeating all the pre-match hot favourites. And yeah...another GOLD medal added to my collection. =)))))

Today is one of the rare occasion whereby i am super on form and highly motivated. There is this unknown source of motivation that is powerful enough to inspire me today...haha....i will try to find out wat this source is. Hmm...the last time i was on form for vball was way back in army, where my team won the inter-unit comp. Yup..totally love the feeling when i am on form, where almost every ball seems to know where i want it to go..hahaha...But nevertheless, must say that vball is a team sport, it require lots of understanding and cooperation from everyone in order to win it, so it doesnt really depend on just one person.

People always say that its the process of fighting to achieve that matters rather than the end product, i agree with that. Somehow, i think we managed to enjoy both the process (coz we were not too stressed up, as we can even joke and laugh though we lost some points) and also achieve what we want today.

And one thing i learnt is that, never go into a battle with the mentality that you will lose, because you have already lost half the battle with that mindset. So i am pretty glad i went into the match with the strong mentality that i will win the game. and i guess thats wat everyone in the team feels as well, though we are facing a much stronger opponent..."there is nothing in this world tt u cannot do, it is whether u want to do it or not"

Hope this win will give me more confidence to face the uncertainty for whatever i am facing now or that come my way.

i am really slacking like mad !!!!

Not been doing much these few days since i am only having a one day week and FYP for this semester. I know that a lot of people are pretty envious that i am only having a one day week, but i myself is not exactly fantastically happy about that fact. Because it can get really super damn boring staying at home with virtually nothing much to do other than slacking, nuahing and lo-bo-ing. Sometimes it has come to a point whereby there is nothing for me to surf on the net, no more movies to watch online and no one to chat online. I even finish reading all sections of all newspaper available everyday lor. So what can i do?? I am now just having a glimpse into that kind of life i will be living after i graduate IF i do not get a job by august, which will be damn sad lah. But then base on the papers reports i think there is a 50% chance that such thing will happen, though i am praying hard that i can get a job.

Totally dun like such slack-until-nothing-to-do kinda life, because it is just simply wasting my time and my life away. And that got me motivated enough to renew my search for job today, but i have not apply yet. Been trying to find a part time job to do from wed-fri of each week and also some volunteering work to do on sat, which i applied with kelvin. Luckily there is still weekly vball session to look forward to, or else i think every single day of the week will be the same to me. Maybe its a good chance for me to go learn some new sports, some new musical instrument or what. Got to live my life man..hahaa...

Realise that quite a number of my friends are feeling rather down or sian or unhappy for some unknown reason these few days. Wouldnt want to probe them too much actually but just wanna say that:

"笑也一天，哭也一天，为什么不笑着过一天??"

It is really up to one's choice to feel happy or not. No matter whether u are happy or unhappy, one day of your life will just go past. So why not make the effort to think positively and be more optimistic right?

letters and cards...

Surprisingly i am still awake at this unearthly timing....been tossing around on bed for almost 2 hrs but just couldnt sleep at all..dunno why..maybe i had slept too much on the bus back home just now. So decided to just tidy up my desk for a while. But that din really last long because i got attracted to a stack of letters or cards that pple sent me during xmas, new yr, bdae or just some random letters since pri sch...

Yup..i do keep all these cards n letters because they have an additional sentimental value to me. I do like snail mail more than emails. Though email is fast and instant, it just cannot replace the additional value and meaning that snail mail brings. The anticipation of receiving the letter or card and the joy of receiving them is much more than what email can brings. And that is why i had never sent out e-greeting cards and prefer physical cards instead. But speaking of which, i have not been sending cards or letters for a few yrs. Guess i have become more busier or maybe more lazy over the years. But actually writing a card doesnt really require hours to write it, i guess its just the amount of effort one is willing to put in only. I myself am happy to receive cards or letters from friends so i guess the receiving party should be happy too right...haha..so why not share the joy...Just hope this mode of communication will not become obsolete.

a place so familiar....NTU

Finally went back to NTU today for FYP meeting...it had been almost 6 months since i stepped into this Pulau NTU, a niao3 bu4 shen1 dan4 place. The first feeling i had when i saw the familiar FAL and the IT labs is "finally..i am back home". Quite surprised that i had such a feeling because in the past i am not exactly proud to be associated with ntu somehow. But i guess its coz after my exchange in HK at hku that makes me appreciate what studying or being back in ntu can offer me. And also, my uni life had been made more colourful and memorable by the various stuff i joined, like the vietnam study trip, the OVE laos expeditiion, the hall life and actually most importantly are the friends i met and the strong friendship bonds that are formed in these 2 yrs that made my uni life more exciting.

So my uni life isnt that boring as i was expecting it to be when i first entered ntu. And somehow, i am starting to miss NTU now especially as this is the last semester that i will be here. So miss staying in hall too, coz it offers convenience for me, gives me some degree of freedom and independence, and can chit chat with pple in halls and go for suppers...what i pity i cant get hall this last sem.

Yup..so since this is my last sem studying in sch for my entire life..i must try to appreciate and treasure every moment, every bits of it. This august will mark a new chapter in life, provided that i found a job of coz..and i will surely miss this schooling chapter which i have lived through for the past 15 years...somehow, i also realise that what really define my schooling life are not the academic achievements i got (if any) but rather the CCAs i joined, the fun n joy i had in these ccas and the friends i have made..yup..so my advice to the kids these days is that they shld join ccas..and join them with passion n enthusiasm coz these are the things that will define their experiences in sch...

Alright...enough of all these crapping n bullshiting...
Time to focus and get back to reality..and of coz must end this sem with a big big bang man..hahaa

back home.....

Its amazing how time flies..4 months of my exchange in hong kong just flew past like that. Can still remember the times at the start when I am still complaining how not used to the life in hk at the initial stage, and even some time late in my exchange. But somehow, these few days I felt rather lost. Full of mixed feeling, on one hand I want to go back home, on the other hand, I am a bit reluctant to go back because I am pretty used to the freedom I had over here and also the cooling and sometimes cold weather., but most importantly, I dun want to go back to face reality. And I guess everyone who r in the final yr knows what this reality is…yes..working =(…cant imagine myself working for the next 40++ years. So this exchange sorta gave me the opportunity to temporarily escape from the cruel fact that I am graduating and do not need to be in the same stress level as those back home for jobs.

One thing abt this trip is that I had always thought that going on tour is all about finding fun and going exciting places to play, but actually it is not the place that really matters, but the company that matters. It’s the human to human interaction that makes life interesting. So glad to know a few better friends from the exchange..and the surprise by the OVE pple and lastly the visit by my vball friends totally made my exchange a memorable one...and to some extent i do miss the exchange now..haha..

Anyway, i am having some difficulty trying to backdate the posts...so i guess i shall let the pictures do the talking instead..

will post more pics again

Time to study...

Finally the end of 5 days of fun with grp 5 pple and the start of my preparation for exams...wun be posting on the 5 days now coz i want to focus on the exams..so will post next week after the papers r over.

Had some serious food poisoning on the last day of their visit which cause derrick desmond kelvin n me to have diarrhoea. And for me, because i do not have anti-diarrhoea pills left, i had to make a trip down to the hospital opposite my hall tt night. Although its just a mere 300m walk from my hall, to me its a long long walk. I was shivering from head to toes and felt so giddy and felt like puking all the time. And after a long wait of abt an hour, its finally my turn to see the doctor and he confirmed tt i had food poisoning. Guess this is the worse food poisoning i had, which made me visit the toilet at least 30 times since sunday. And worse still, i slept for so long tt i have yet started my revision..

Dun like the feeling of falling sick overseas seriously....but somehow i managed to find some warmth somehow, with my friends offering to help me buy meals and my neighbour willingly lending me his heater because he knows i am feeling cold..Thank you so much...

Will post abt the surprise visit by grp5 after my exams...shall catch 2 more hrs of sleep b4 my study officially commence...

till then.....

An Unexpected SURPRISE!!!! The BEST i had...

Totally unexpected...the OVE peeps are here in HK!!!!!.....super OMG right. I simply cannot believe my eyes when i saw the bunch of them, 6 of them...Kelvin, derrick, desmond, yen ling, sarah and stacey...appearing in front of me outside the medical library today and shouting "SURPRISE!!!"...Stunned...shocked...speechless...

In fact when i saw them, i had so mixed feelings, because i just ended my phone interview in the library with a bank, and i simply screw up, coz its so awkward talking over the phone and no one seems to be on the other end and i am like speaking to a wall, so i stammered a lot and ya i know..i screw up...so being so disappointed with myself and i unsuspectingly walk out to look for Z who claims tt he wants to pass me some stuff. But anyway, who will expect them to fly all the way to HK to find me, although i did suggest jokingly...and it really did become a reality...so was so shocked tt i do not know how to react...

Felt soooooo touched.....they had planned this like 2 months ago..and made so much effort to keep it a secret from me....Actually the fact that they came here is enough to make me feel so touched...hahaha....so i have not been forgotten afterall =)....So brought them to eat dim sum at my favourite dim sum place at westwood and followed by some shopping at central and causeway bay....this is the first time i step out of my westwood area in 2 weeks siaz...totally so busy with reports...and tt explains why i did not catch any hints or signs that they are coming here...thinking back, when i piece everything together, i shld have detected this plot if i had been alert..haha...but tt would not be so much a surprise already...soooo...i still prefer this outcome...

Still cannot believe tt they are here.....hope tt is not a dream..haha...i will be meeting them tmr right??

BEST SURPRISE i had so far....Thanksssss so much.....nothing can express tt other than spending more time with u all...

Feel so fortunate that i have known so many wonderful friends around me.....=)))))

LKF...Club 9

After a super long long thursday of lessons and that 2 projects, my much needed rest finally arrived. We went to patrick mansion to celebrate meida birthday and then proceed down to Club 9 at central, near LKF. First time i went with them to clubbing. Actually i am not intending to go because i am sick and just ate panadol, but thinking that there might not be much opportunities for big group outings, so i just go ahead with them...I personally dun really like clubbing because i dun dance and dun really like super loud music blasting into my ears. But occasional visits is fine for me and can destress too ba.

The rest initially had the plan to knock me out(make me drunk) to embarrass me, but did not succeed because i cannot drink alcohol after eating the panadol(which i kinda regret eating). But i still drink quite a bit lah..cant resist the temptation..haha..so took the the gamble hoping that i will not die coz of liver complications the next day...haha..ya..and i survived of coz....There are still quite a number of funny stuff that happened actually...but i shall not elaborate here before i get killed by the rest..hahaa...Just some pics below..

with meida(bdae girl), rachel n wesley

the guys..wesley, kenn,davidgroup photo...its actually super duper cold out at the balcony...

and after clubbing which is about 3am, we decided to cab down to the fav supper place to have some midnight supper...and one thing abt this dim sum place is tt the shop owner is like treating us like her VIPs siaz..esp when the amount of dim sum we order can easily surpass the total amt of dim sum those customers in the shop order..haha..and guess what...we stayed there eat and talk till 5am...super happening siaz..really going to miss this kinda life when i get back to spore...