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Been sick these 2 days and so did not go back to office. I must say this is a long overdue break that i need from work. Been working day in day out, some days till late nights. And on weekends, been going out till very late and reach home super late. So as you can see, i dun have much time to rest at all for the past 3 months. I feel tired and drained out. So these 2 days, been staying at home, sleeping most of the time and enjoying the slack moment which i missed..really.

Today is the first time in like 3 months since i open the photos folder on my comp and look back at those times i had. Cant help it but feel sad that life have changed so much since graduation. Life is no longer the same anymore, or rather it can never be the same anymore. I miss those times back in JC, where we can be so rebellious so playful. Life was simple, but fun. I miss times in Vietnam and Laos...I miss times in HK...and those were the times when i am feel so carefree, without the need to face the reality of the world....

When one of my friend told me that he is going to quit his job coz he dun like it, i tried hard to presuade him not to quit, telling him the reality of this society and the things he have to consider if he want to quit. But now, thinking back, i kind of admire his courage for quitting something he doesnt like to do. I dun think i can be like him because i lack that courage, because i tend to think too much about the consequences. Not that i am unhappy of this job, but i just find that working is just zapping my energy, my soul away. I used to have a lot of crazy ideas, a lot of places i wanna go to, but now everyday after work, all i wanna do is go home and have dinner and then sleep. This cycle repeat itself for 5 days. Is this the kind of life i want? I seldom really smile at work, because it is not like doing projects with your friends, you can joke around, you cant say stupid things, you can buy food and munch your snacks while discussing. You have to be serious all the time. This is killing me..really. This isnt me at all. I dun want to be so serious for the rest of my life....After 3 months+...i feel tired. Do i still have the energy to last for the remaining 1 yr 9 months? i wonder....